Around the world in 8 dollars

I had 1 lakh in my account and 3 lakh in fixed deposit when I took an apartment on rent and started living independently.  That 1 lakh was a great moral support. The situation got better after six months when I started earning a little, gradually saved 2 lakhs.

I rented a better apartment. And my moral support shifted from 1 to 2 lakhs.

The moment saving falls from 2 lakh so does my heart. I laugh at myself thinking earlier 1 lakh was enough to satisfy my mind and now 2 is not enough.

Past experiences remind me to see my fear more clearly and also give me courage and reinsurance.

When I was 23, I decided to learn Bharatanatyam dance. I left my well-paid job and joined Kendra. The only problem was to pay the dance fees and I had no savings.

The dance fees had to be paid after every two months. I decided to manage it by myself. I thought of teaching computers and soon I got one student. The money covered the exact amount of my dance fees. I thought it would be a more relaxed situation if I manage to get one more student.

But it did not happen. My aunt used to give Rs.200 every month which covered my scooty petrol expenses and other small needs. I was happy and satisfied.

But after a month, I started worrying about the next fee submission. What if I don’t manage to get another student? How will I pay my dance fees? I was anxious and fearful. There was constant stress and tension at the back of my mind all the time. But there was no sign of help.

When I was close to the due date, suddenly a computer student turned up. I thought it was just a coincidence. I paid my fees and continued learning.  But again after one month, I was back to square one, tension and fear for the next submission.

Again, before submission, a new student came. I wonder if God wants to help me why he waits until the deadline. Why can’t he send the student before time so I don’t get tense?  And why he does not send two students together so that I can be more relaxed about money?

So it happened, next month, a new student came right at the beginning of the month. But he was not in the position to pay the fee and I could not ask him. At the back of my mind, I was worried about my fee submission. After two days another student came and I paid my fees.

This magic was no longer a coincidence. It continued happening every time for three consecutive years.

I realized that God wants me to identify my fear in the time of delay. It is my own restlessness. He wants me to trust him without a doubt. Also, I learned that when we give 100% to our job and relationships, God takes care of our future.

Every time in life, at every step, the magic continued. Faith and trust did not come to me by reading any books and listening to the lectures. It was my own hard, repeated experiences in life.

I feel like traveling the world in 8 dollars. I enjoy this journey with no burden of wealth and property. I am kind of loving this magical experience, to see how things work every time.

I am sure everyone has experienced this magic in some or another way. In a time of need, the help comes from unexpected sources. We often think of it as a coincidence. The mind does not let us believe in magic and takes us back to fear and insecurity; where we act accordingly.

Life is magic if we allow ourselves to experience it by giving more control to life. We do our best and relax.

All these years, God is trying to tell me that I am with you whether you know it or not. Also when you are greedy I will not support you but when you are needy I am always there for you.